The Pursuit of Kindness

Pursuit of Kindness

October 10, 2023

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Grammar, punctuation, & writing have never been my area of expertise. Writing a blog wasn’t even an objective I had in mind. Sometimes, just writing my thoughts & emotions I’ve found to be good for my mental health. By letting it get out in the open. But I do not want to bombard my social media with my ramblings. Now, I don’t search for blogs, I don’t browse them, & I do not read them. So if I find a system and a routine that works for me - only time will tell how that goes.  

Creating this took some consideration as to what I wanted to focus on. Also, how vulnerable I wanted to become. So, with that info… how did I end up starting a blog? I had a coworker mention that I should write a book, I had both my mother and my mother in-law say I should create a vlog. One day I had Lin-Manuel Miranda’s “Hamilton” playing in the background and I thought to myself, why don’t I pick up my iPhone and discover what blogging has to offer. 

The story I hope to tell here is one that is of the trials and tribulations of being transgender (trans). I am a trans-woman, a trans-parent, a trans-spouse.  At the end of the day when it’s all said and done I am just another human. These are trying times for being transgender. It often gets lost that we are still human. I’ve been subject to it and also witnessed the way people are treated. The media and politics do not help. I hope by just creating a blog I can bring you into my life, as well as that of my blossoming family, while being able to be a voice for the trans community, telling my story in ways that most don’t see it from. Ultimately, helping  others to understand and to also support others going through a similar situation. 

Welcome to the life of Taylor Jade. I started my transition 2 years ago in 2022 on a random summer night at the age of 32. I was married and had one daughter at the time (fast forward to  2023 still married and 2 beautiful daughters now) We were laying in bed just talking about life and it wasn’t premeditated to do at the time but something felt like now is the time to be open about how I view myself and eventually what would feel like opening Pandora’s box. I let my entire world into what ive kept quiet for so long out to my wife…about how I viewed myself. 

 It wouldn’t be until December 11th of 2022 that I let society into my life with a facebook post. That summed up some of the thought process and conversations that had been occurring for the last year. In summary, I discussed finally deciding to be the best version of myself that I can give to my daughter(s), wife, family, friends and myself.  Basically learning to love myself and self improvement. Mainly, I’m doing this for my girls though because they deserve me at 110%, whole heartedly and present.  

It was not until February 1st of 2023 when I combined my testosterone blocker with my estrogen to start medically transitioning. Which now as of October 2023, I’ve slowly been introducing the physical aspect of my transition, by allowing myself to present as my authentic and whole-self. 

I try not be in your face when it comes to my transition but I feel transparency and  being vulnerable is a positive thing to help others understand what it means for someone who is transgender and someone who may be struggling with gender incongruence. I feel my take on it is different than what is sometimes the narrative given by the media and politicians so maybe I’ll be able to tell my story from a different perspective I and my story will be a voice in which has not been done before or heard from the LGBT+ community and the rest of the world. Just like how Alexander Hamilton is portrayed in “Hamilton” my goal would be to move total strangers to kindnesses by mine and my families story.

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-Taylor Jade : )

Edited by: Ashley <3